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[Jul. 2nd, 2006|03:02 pm] |
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Today is my dad's birthday. So I have to basically be his bitch and do stupid shit with him all day. We just got back from looking at flood damage. Gah.
Yesterday was Verba's thing. It wasn't too bad. He told me that it would just be him and I, and then when I get there, he, Wally and Pat are there. And then like five minutes later Kurt and Erica came. I absolutely hate Erica. When I had to leave I told Verba to like come to the bottom of his driveway with me to wait for my mom. I meant for everyone to come, but just Verba came and it was insanely awkward. We just like stood there in silence for about five minutes, and he started to like slowly move closer and closer to me. Then he started talking about how he finally got his emotions situated, and he put his arm aroudn me. Then he started to like turn his body towards me, lik ehe was going to kiss me. And then, just like in the movies, Kurt came running down the driveway like an idiot. Verba got kinda mad. It made me laugh. When my mom finally came, Verba was like "Can I at least have a hug..." I know he's going to either call me tonight or talk to me online about it and I'm kind of afraid that he'll like ask me out again and I don't know what I want now. Blah. |
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[Apr. 9th, 2006|08:26 pm] |
I've missed Livejournal.
A lot has happened recently. I guess the major thing is my uncle dying. My uncle Jeff had moved back to my grandparents house a few years ago because he got divorced and needed some time to get back on his feet and get a place of his own, etc. He started drinking a lot and got a DUI and his license was taken away for a year. He was just starting to look for his own place this year and on March 17th he died of a heart attack. It doesn't make any sense to me because he wasn't overweight or unhealthy at all, and he was only 48. If anything he was underweight. He was pretty close to me. He was more of a father to me than my own father. It's been almost a month and I really miss him.
I learned how to drive last weekend.
My birthday was Wednesday. I got a new computer complete with a super skinny, adorable monitor. I named him Bert.
I was going to go to Verba's house on Friday but that got retarded. On Saturday I went shopping and such with my mother. I snuck out around 11:30 and hung out at Matt's with him and a few friends. Got kind of shitfaced and got home around 3:30. I almost got caught sneaking back inside. My mom woke me up at 9 and I had a splitting headache but blah.
I went to the mall with Mfo and Verba. Wasted all my money on basically nothing. We met up with Joe and Annalyn later one. And now I'm here.
I'm getting a physical next Friday and then my permit either Saturday or Monday.
I can feel this whole Me and Verba thing coming to an end. This week has been totally awkward and bad and I'm not quite sure why. We went to the Spring Fling dance at my school last Friday (yeah I know we're losers.) and it just sort of... felt amazing? I dunno how to describe it other than that I never felt that close to someone. I don't know what happened and it really bothers me but things are just awkward between us now. We need to talk about it I guess but it's kind of hard to just... bring it up. Blahhh.
I have off on Thursday and Friday and they're making us go back on Monday. The day after Easter. Bullshit. |
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[Mar. 2nd, 2006|09:24 pm] |
| [ | music |
| | Redneck Stomp. Obituary. | ] |
Well... it's been awhile.
Not too much has happened.
New semester started in the beginning of February.
Period 1: Days 1,3,5-Gym
Period 1: Days 2,4,6-Creative Writing (I love this class. All we do is work on compositions that will eventually become our final project: A historical fiction short story. Mine is about Jack the Ripper.)
Period 2: Global. (I hate this class but.. my teacher is a hottie.)
Period 3: Math. (Blah.)
Period 4: Spanish III (I love Spanish. The end.)
Verba asked me out finally. On February 9th.
I really do like him. A lot. He's sweet and cute and genuine. He keeps talking about like... when we get married and have kids and shit and I absolutely hate it. But I can't bring myself to tell him that we won't last that long. Oh well.
I have a crush on a girl.
Logan and I got in a huuuuuuge fight last week. We made up, got in another fight, made up, and we're currently in yet another fight.
I put another hole in my right ear. And my left ear is up to a size 4.
I miss being friends with Rachel.
Band practices for the band trip in April (Baltimore. Whoo.) start on Monday. I'm excited.
I think that's it.
Bye. |
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[Nov. 17th, 2005|05:26 pm] |
Busy weekend.
Tomorrow: Pep rally which I'm performing in. Aaaand later on making a cake for the craft fair, and going to the school to make crafts for the craft fair.
Saturday: I have to be at school by 7 am to get stuff ready for the craft fair and then we leave at 10 for the game in Wyomissing which starts at 1:30. I should be home around 6 or 7. Possibly going to the movies.
Sunday:Going to the mall in the morning with mi madre, and then Traven's party. Possibly spending the night at Brittany's or something.
Monday: Nothing. Whooo.
Tuesday: Harry Potter!! WEEE!
Wednesday: Nothing.
Thursday. Turkey at Grandma's house.
Friday: Hair cut appointment, doctors appointment.
Let me explain the doctor's appointment.
I need a knee brace and..
I get horrible cramps. Like it literally feels like there is a knife in my vagina and if I move a certain way it stabs it. They're unbearable and have been getting worse every month, so I'm getting birth control. Seasonale, I think. The kind that makes you only get your period 4 times a year. I'm nervous as shit about the uh ... vaginal exam. But oh well I'll get over it I guess.
It started out with a kiss
How did it end up like this?
It was only a kiss, it was only a kiss.
I'm going to re dye my hair this weekend at some point... Huge bleach blond chunk in the front and the rest will be red, as usual. My roots are like an inch long at the moment.
I love Thanksgiving. |
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[May. 22nd, 2005|09:30 pm] |
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| | God is a Gun. Otep. | ] |
Um... Yeah.
This is friends only from now on. Comment to be added.
<3. |
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[Feb. 19th, 2005|11:50 am] |
If you woke up and I was in bed with you, what would be your first thought?
Post a reply, then post this in your LJ and find out what my answer would be. |
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[Feb. 8th, 2005|09:25 pm] |
If you read this,
even if i don't speak to you often,
you must post a memory of me.
It can be anything you want, it can be good or bad,
just so long as it happened.
Then post this to your journal. See what people remember about you.... |
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| (no subject) |
[Jan. 8th, 2005|07:31 pm] |
1. Comment and I'll pick one of your LJ interests and draw you a picture, using MS Paint.
2. You have no say in what I draw you! Or in how much it will suck!
3. Put this in your journal.
Kira arguing with religious people.
Mae... Jimmy Eat World. Sorry it sucks, couldn't think of anything better.
And Stef... Starbucks. All your interests were bands and they're hard to draw, so I found something from your bio. I hope that's not cheating... mm lumpy frappuccino.
This is Melissa at the beach, sniffing summer, and falling in love. I took that from your bio, not your interests. Too bad, I guess I'm a cheater.
sxybaby226...I must be a failure because I don't know your name. Anyway, yeah. Thongs... Victoria's Secret... Oreos... and kissing in the rain.
Chris... your interests suck. But umm yeah... you have teeth. And a tongue. Cause you like biting things and licking things. And uhh your bible. And me. With a smile on my face, cause I'm happy, cause I just burned your bible. Weee.
RACHEL! My fucking husband. Yes. Your interests also suck... by that I mean, you don't have many listed. Anyway ...spork of death, flag, ME, bloody kiss, and Konstantine.
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[Jan. 1st, 2005|11:34 pm] |
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Well.
I haven't had a proper public update since ...the 22nd which was... like a week and a half ago. So I'll just... update about vacation.
Uhh
Well Christmas. I got ummm clothes, a blender (??), a cell phone, a few cds... and I dunno, other stuff. Uhh I went to my aunt's that night and yeah.
Tuesday. I went to the mall with Meghan and managed to spend all my money. Then we came back to my house and I finally saw Napoleon Dynamite.
Wednesday. Chelsea's party. That was cool. I kissed a girl. o.O Actually, three or four girls. Haha.
Thursday. Grounded.
...Yeah.
School on Monday. Blahh.
Hm. I got like... six cds over break. Comalies. In a Reverie. War Within. Hot Damn. Until the End. Obsession. Obsession sucks. Until the End is okay. War Within is eh. Hot Damn is eh. But both Lacuna Coil's are friggin' sweet. (In the spirit of Napoleon Dynamite)
Blahh I love Napoleon. I'm probably one of the few that think this, but he's damn sexy in that movie. John Heder is hot out of costume, but hotter in costume.
Mmhm |
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[Jan. 1st, 2005|12:02 am] |
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( Weee )
I got bored.
I'm grounded. On New Years Eve. I'm angry. Oh well. |
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[Dec. 29th, 2004|10:27 pm] |
| [ | mood |
| | artistic | ] |
| [ | music |
| | Career Suicide. Kittie | ] |
I stole this from Mel.
Bold those that you have kissed....
on the cheek.
on the lips
in my room.
in their room.
of the opposite sex.
younger than me.
older than me.
with black hair
with curly hair.
with blonde hair & blue eyes.
with flaming red hair.
with straight hair.
shorter than me.
taller than me.
with a lip ring
with a piece of clothing missing.
with a piece of my clothing missing.
who was drunk.
who was high.
who I had just met.
who was homosexual.
who I didn't really want to kiss.
on a holiday.
who was going out with someone close to me.
who was my good friend's brother or sister.
who had been/is in jail.
in a graveyard.
at a show/concert.
at the beach.
on the dance floor.
who was legally too young/old for me to have sex with.
with dyed hair.
with a shaved head.
who was/is my good friend.
who was/is in a band.
who has tattoos.
who is of a completely different race than me.
in the rain.
in another continent besides where I was born.
with an accent.
with an std.
on a boat.
in a car/taxi/bus.
on a plane.
at the circus/carnival/fair.
with a missing body part.
in the movies
that I love. |
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[Dec. 29th, 2004|10:35 am] |
| [ | mood |
| |  blah | ] |
| [ | music |
| | Said and Done. Eighteen Visions | ] |
Blah.
01. I have kissed someone of the same sex on the lips.
02. I see/used to see a therapist.
03. I'm the youngest child.
04. I am drawn to things associated with sadness. What can I say? I'm just a stupid emo kid.
05. I love my gauged earrings. Blah.
06. I wear black eyeliner every day.
07. I am extremely influenced by kindness.
08. I love to write, even though I think I suck at it.
09. I can't live without lip gloss Lip balm. I hate gloss.
10. I'm probably emotionally scarred.
11. I lived in Tahoe.
12. I spend money I have.
13. I will be in college for over 4 years. Maybe?
14. I love designer handbags
15. I've had a concussion before.
16. I'm not good with confrontations
17. I loved the Backstreet Boys.
18. I have more than a couple of horrible memories.
19. I'm addicted to Degrassi.
20. I've tried writing poetry before but it sucked.
21. My first kiss was unexpected.
22. I'm not a fan of rap.
23. I love taking pictures.
25. I can be mean when I want to.
26. When I allow myself to get close to people, I get attached.
27. I am bisexual.
28. I have way too many pairs of shoes. None of them fit. Cept for my chucks and cleats.
29. I was into Hot Wheels as a child.
30. I dress how I feel that day.
31. My room is painted a color other than white.
32. I cry very easily.
33. I'm always early.
34. I barely ever study for tests.
35. My birthday is my favorite holiday.
36. I have too many clothes for my closet/dresser.
37. I am a morning person.
38. I wish I were smarter.
39. I believe that it is wrong to be gay.
40. I don't blame gay people for being gay. I love gay people. Err, I love all the gay people that I know. Yeah.
41. No one really knows me.
42. I don't have many bad days.
43. I sometimes fight with my parents.
44. I am passionate about my interests.
45. I have had the chicken pox. Twice. o.O
46. I'm a hopeless romantic!
47. I feel empty sometimes.
48. I am/was clinically depressed at a point in my life.
49. I am no longer depressed because of medication.
50. I am very outgoing.
51. Christmas is my favorite holiday.
52. I can be very insecure.
53. I don't notice it, but I'm told I'm very softspoken.
54. I hate ignorant people the most.
55. I love the color yellow.
56. I love guys that play the guitar. And bass... and drums.. whatever.
57. I state the obvious.
58. I'm a moody person.
59. I have a low self-confidence.
60. I've contemplated suicide.
61. I hate cleaning my room.
62. I tend to get jealous.
63. I like to play video games.
64. I love John Mayer.
65. I get more upset when I see an animal hurt than a person.
66. I'm a vegetarian/vegan/don't eat meat. I was, for a few weeks. Didn't work out, cause... I love bacon.
67. I've had a crush on a teacher before.
68. I am too forgiving.
70. I have a good sense of direction.
71. I'm happy with my life.
72. I've played a musical instrument for more than 5 years. Different instruments... Violin for four years, and guitar for... a year.
73. I can function perfectly well without a girlfriend/boyfriend. Well, I'm doing fine now.
74. I love kisses on the forehead.
75. I love the color blue.
76. I don't sew.
77. I am not addicted to drugs.
78. I wear contacts.
79. I don't really care about politics.
80. I hate Bush, but I have reasons to justify it.
81. I don't take criticism well.
82. Conformity is stupid.
83. I love Colin Farrell. Sexy, sexy beast.
84. Rocker boys turn me on.
85. I love my family.
86. I don't mind getting shots. As long as they're not in the mouth.
87. I am a perfectionist when it comes to certain things.
88. I always wanted to learn to play the guitar. Well, I'm kind of learning now.
89. I can be too hard on myself.
90. I don't believe that premarital sex is wrong.
91. I don't like my nose.
92. I am very religious.
93. I still act like a little kid.
94. I am ridiculously indecisive.
95. I believe in a higher power or some form of an afterlife.
96. I love music.
97. I am allergic to peanuts.
98. I have problems letting go of people.
99. Ashlee Simpson is awesome
100. I don't really like ice cream. It's not so much that I don't like it... It's just the fact that it makes me vomit.
Well. Uhh I got up at 8. Blahh. I'm going to Chelsea's later, for her party. That should be... pretty crazy. Yup. |
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| (no subject) |
[Dec. 22nd, 2004|09:10 pm] |
| [ | music |
| | For Your Malice. Lamb of God | ] |
Blahh.
Today was alright I suppose.
English. Blah. I don't know.
Math. Made a poster about the Poly something theorem.
Global. International Food Day, or something like that. Basically we just sat around and ate. My group, which consisted of me, Tara, Jenn and Keaton made some sort of soup. It looked like shitty cheese... with jizz. Or some other sort of white substance. It smelled bad too. I don't think anyone ate it.
Spanish. Test.
Half day tomorrow. Hooray? Then vacation. :dances: I'm doing the rest of my Christmas shopping tomorrow after school, then possibly going to Rachel's. That is, if my mom feels like driving me to her house after we go shopping. Meh. |
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[Dec. 21st, 2004|08:49 pm] |
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| | pleased | ] |
| [ | music |
| | Heaven's a Lie. Lacuna Coil | ] |
Blah.
Nothing worth writing about today. Except, it's been a week since I've done any sort of bad stuff. Well, today I tried to make myself bleed, cause I had a page that I tore out of the bible in my bookbag, and I wanted to bleed on it. But the sharpest thing I could find was a sewing needle, and as hard as I pushed on my arm, it didn't bleed. I was pissed. Anyway, yeah. I broke a Creed cd today. That made me happy.
Ooh!! I almost forgot...
My list of people who put their finger in the metal loop on my panties.
1. Chelsea.
2. Amanda.
3. Mandy.
4. Misty.
5. Chris.
6. Rachel
7. Lauren.
8. Megan.
9. Brittany.
10. Teresa.
11. Katie.
Blahh I forget the rest. But 22 people did it. Next time I wear those panties, my goal is thirty.
Tomorrow I'll make a list of people who slapped my ass. Or a list of people whose asses I slapped. Blah I dunno, I'll decide tomorrow. |
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| (no subject) |
[Dec. 20th, 2004|06:00 pm] |
| [ | mood |
| |  geeky | ] |
| [ | music |
| | Beautiful People. Manson | ] |
Bah fucking humbug.
I hate winter.
I hate snow.
I hate ice.
I hate cold.
I hate Christmas.
I hate New Years.
I hate Jesus.
Blahh. I was expecting at least a two hour delay, but nooo, of course not. My bus was twenty minutes late. I was fucking cold. The bottoms of my shoes froze, and I slipped when getting on the bus, and again when walking into school. I brought some people's presents today... Rachel's, Teresa's, Sasha's, and Chelsea's. Rachel gave me a Carebear blanket. It's way fuzzy and I love it times infinity. Teresa gave me a Puss In Boots poster. Damnit I love that kitty. Blah. Yeah.
Today.
English. Uhh well I went to the Distinguished Honor's breakfast thing. That was kind of... pointless but whatever. Then umm went to the library and presented my Shakespeare allusion thing.
Math. Durrr I forget
Global. Uh I dunno but in the beginning of class there was a centipede on the floor and it scared me. I really hate bugs, especially the crawly ones. Like centipedes. So I screamed. Then Rachel screamed. Then we ran in the corner until someone killed it. Yeah. Cause I'm pathetic like that.
Spanish. Durrr... Uh. Spanish is never eventful.
Yeah.
BLAH!
We still don't have a Christmas tree. And that makes me smile.
:smile: |
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[Dec. 18th, 2004|05:49 pm] |
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| | I Hate Jimmy Page. MSI | ] |
Wee. I'm happy cause I finished most of my Christmas shopping. I still need something for my dad (mom will pay for that), my brother (mom), my grandma (mom), Meghan, Megan, Lauren, Chris, Sara, and Alex. Today I got... Amanda's present, Liz's, Josie's, and probably some other people's. Yesterday I got Chelsea's and Rachel's. And for most everyone else I'm just going to make cookies. I finally got a cell phone today. Well, I can't have it till Christmas, but whatever. I'm all excited about the fact that it's a flip phone. So it'll be like :ring ring: :flip: Hello? Ohh yeah. o.O
We got my brother a new TV today. I'm slightly jealous, seeing as I'm the only one in my family without a TV in my room. Though I rarely watch TV so whatever, I don't need one. Or want one, really.
I wrapped some presents today. And I was reminded of how much I hate wrapping presents, and how much I suck at wrapping presents. Josie's present is in the shape of a candy cane, and was a bitch to wrap. So I just wrapped duct tape around it and put a bow on it. Hell yes.
I had a crazy ass dream last night. Very similar to the dream Stef wrote about in her LJ... but yeah. I was walking down the road and picked up a piece of glass. I kept trying to cut my arm with it, but it wasn't sharp enough. I threw it in the creek. Then I looked at my arm and it was all scarred in the shape that I tried to cut my arm in. I don't think that made a lot of sense. Yeah...
I hate you Jesus.
Bye. |
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| (no subject) |
[Dec. 15th, 2004|09:30 pm] |
| [ | mood |
| | blah | ] |
| [ | music |
| | Gone With the Sin. HIM | ] |
Yeah.
Today sucked. A lot. Umm I won't elaborate much... mostly cause of laziness.
My brother is in the next room, and I can hear him breathing. I just might flip out and tear his lungs into pieces, cause it's bothering me that much.
Christmas is in ten days. And I... don't care much. I know what I'm getting... CDs, DVDs, money, and pajamas from Old Navy (like every year). I still have to get Christmas presents for... everyone but Katie and Sasha. And Teresa, kinda. Damnit I hate Christmas. Actually, I hate Jesus mostly. That bastard.
I got my pictures back. Finally. And I decided that I hate me with long hair. It makes my face look... long. Err something.
Know what I hate?
When people have those blow up Santas and reindeers in their lawns.
Know what I love?
When people have deflated Santas and reindeers in their lawns.
I'm mad, cause we're out of yogurt. When I got home I had my little heart set on a smoothie. But we dont have any yogurt. I'm so pissed. Actually, not only are we out of yogurt, we're out of just about everything else. There's almost no food in my house. Mother's going shopping on Friday, I think. So that problem shall be solved. If she doesn't get yogurt I'm gonna kick her ass.
I wanted this to be a long, rambly entry to make up for the lack of entries recently, but clearly I am a failure. |
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| (no subject) |
[Dec. 13th, 2004|06:00 pm] |
Psh well hello.
Today was... good. After school I went to Milford with mother. I got the best coffee ever at the bakery. Seriously, it kicked a lot of ass. Rachel and I are getting married tomorrow, after school. Damn straight.
Yeah...
I hate Jesus.
Bye. |
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| (no subject) |
[Dec. 10th, 2004|09:45 pm] |
| [ | mood |
| |  anxious | ] |
| [ | music |
| | What I Always Wanted. Kittie. | ] |
Hello.
Today was... alright I guess. I went to the mall after school. Got a Lacuna Coil cd, and the new Shadows Fall. Can't have them till Christmas though. Fucking Christmas... I hate Jesus anyway.
So... Dimebag Darrel died. I won't say too much about it, cause you all know by now, I'm sure. I'm not that big of a fan of Pantera, but I liked Damageplan. So yeah, this sucks. Sasha had to do current events in Global today, so I wrote out a little thing about Dimebag for her to say. ^.^ Hooray for me, I guess.
I've just decided that Andrew McMahon is the sexiest, whiniest, emo kid ever. Hell yes.
Bye. |
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